2OO9

Goodbye decade of my life.

4:27pm

It's snowing so slowly.
I'm crying.
It's beautiful.
I'm hurting.
But it's beautiful.
It looks unreal.
I've never felt so fucked up.
It's so beautiful outside today.

The snow is healing me.

9:23pm

Is not really happy with her life right now,
and is not mature enough for most of this.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/copaface/

8:32pm

Backstage behind the curtain there's an
There's an armchair with a secret engine and you

You climb in and get naked watching Star Blazers

Wish you had their amenities

To fend off your enemies

In one big blast from your wave motion gun

And so you reach down to that secret panel and there's a

There's a whole raft of little buttons and you

You pick one and hope it takes you to Mars

Soon there'll be no pain again

You'll feel like yourself again

When you shoot all your heroin

In one big blast from your wave motion gun

And so downstairs behind the oven there's a

There's a dark hole where, where the gas comes in

You know you should, you should climb in

It'll get you there so much faster

Soon there'll be no pain again

You'll feel like yourself again

When you shoot all your heroin

In one big blast from

In one big shot

From your wave motion gun

Bicycle

You say black, I say white

You say bark, I say bite
You say shark, I say hey man,
Jaws was never my scene
And I don't like Star Wars
You say Rolls, I say Royce
You say God, give me a choice
You say Lord, I say Christ
I don't believe in Peter Pan,
Frankenstein or Superman
All I wanna do is
Bicycle bicycle bicycle

You say coke, I say caine

You say John, I say Wayne
Hot dog, I say cool it man
I don't wanna be the President of America
You say smile, I say cheese
Cartier, I say please
Income tax, I say Jesus
I don't wanna be a candidate
For Vietnam or Watergate
'Cause all I want to do is
Bicycle bicycle bicycle

10:32pm

My closest friend, Katie.
She gets me.

10:30pm

I've changed my mind so much I cant even trust it
My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself

8:17pm

Sing out with a pair of sunset lungs
Self

4:31pm

War is over, if you want it.

New camera

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Beauty

"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and, this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember, and I need to remember.

 Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."

-Ricky Fitts, American Beauty

4:57pm

You are beautiful, and I'd love to hold your hand.

Self, last christmas

8:23pm

My boy, that I miss.

Halloween on christmas

Christmas is far from fun when you know that you're not getting what you want.

Before

10:19pm

"If life were picture perfect you could frame it." -Jimmy Pop, My husband to be

9:53pm

If I'm laden at all
I'm laden with sadness

That everyone's heart

Isn't filled with the gladness

Of love for one another

9:15pm

'Dear diary, I'm afraid I'm gravely ill.

It is perhaps times like these that one reflects on things past. An article of clothing from when I was young. A green jacket. I walk with my father. A game we once played.

Pretend we're faeries. I'm a girl faerie. My name is Laura Lee. And you're a boy faerie. Your name is Tita Lee. Pretend, when we're faeries we fight each other, and I say

"Stop hitting me I'll die!" And you hit me again and I say,

"Now I have to die." And then you say,

"But I'll miss you." And I say,

"But I have to. And you'll have to wait a million years to see me again. And I'll be put in a box, and all I'll need is a tiny glass of water and lots of tiny pieces of pizza and the box will have wings like an airplane." And you'll ask,

"Where will it take you?"

"Home." I say. '
-Olive Cotard

Hum

It isn't right for me to paint your picture every night, but I do. I can­t find sleep.

My Uncle

Nodding out, burning cigarette holes in his sheets
Wake up, eat a box of Captain Crunch then go back to sleep

Jar

"My soul lies inert, in a glass jar
In the amniotic fluid of primordial confusion
As research material for neuro-scientists
Cushioned in chaos, there I lay
Afraid that the jar would break one day."
–AJ Rao

Rat

"We can no longer live as rats. We know too much."

-Nicodemus

4:10pm

Fix ourselves

"That's 'cause we all wanna be problemless. To fix ourselves. We look for some magic solution to make us all better, but none of us really know what we're doing. And why is that so bad? That's all we humans can do. Guess. Try. Hope. But, Justin, just pray you don't fool yourself into thinking you've got the answer. Because that's bullshit. The trick is living without an answer. I think."
-Thumbsucker

WC

W: 33
C: 15.5

2:57pm

I have a baby-sitting interview at 6.

I really hope I get this job.

I need the money.

11:21pm

If you wish to live wisely, ignore sayings - including this one.

8:20pm

Arthritis and cold weather are more than irritating.

4:38pm

Lesley Hornby - Edit by myself

4:14pm

Because we dont see you at all

Do you realize

Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face?

Do you realize we're floating in space?

Do you realize that happiness makes you cry?

Do you realize that everyone you know someday will die?

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know

You realize that life goes fast

It's hard to make the good things last

You realize the sun doesn't go down

It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do you realize that everyone you know someday will die?

Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face?

There

You can take me there. Please take me there.

12:22am

Maybe.

3:17pm

• Today is the first Saturday all year that I've stayed home
• I have to finish a whole ISU in one day
• Weight loss is a feeble whore
• My hair is damaged and I think its time to go dark
• I should probably start working at some point

11:05pm

Eight

11:01

Why can't chickens cross the road without having their motives questioned?

Rag and bone

"Meg, look at this place."
"What? Whoo!"
"This place is like a mansion!
It's like a mansion!
Look at all this stuff!"
"I don't know."
"Look, I see something over there.
Man . . .
Well can't you hear we're selling rag and bone?
Bring out your junk and we'll give it a home
A broken trumpet or a telephone
Come on, come on, come on, come on and give it to me
Yeah
Come on, come on, come on, come on and give it to me
Rag and bone
I'll have your pretty
Your pretty little rags and bones
Well, man, look at all this.
You don't want it?"
"What is that?"
"You sure you don't want it?
If it's just things that you don't want, I can use 'em
Meg can use 'em.
We can do something with 'em.
We'll make something out of 'em.
Make some money out of 'em, at least.
Hey, if you ain't gonna use it, just give it to us.
We'll give it a home.
Well, have they got something shiny for me?
Anybody got a Christmas tree?
Can you part with a toilet seat?
A jump up, a jump up, a jump up, come on and give it to me
Rag and bone
We wanna get it, granny, while it's hot
You think it's trash, granny, but it's not
We'll be taking whatever you got
A give up, a give up, a give up, come on and give it to me
All of your pretty, your pretty little rags and bones."
"I saw some stuff in your yard, are you gonna give it to us?"
"Aww, Meg, don't be rude."
"Or not . . ."
"They might need it.
If you don't want it, we'll take it; if you don't want to give it to us, we keep walking by.
Keep going, we're not tired.
Got plenty of places to go, lots of homes we ain't been to yet.
West side, southwest side, middle-east, rich house, dog house, outhouse, old folks house, house for unwed mothers, halfway homes, catacombs, twilight zones.
Looking for techniques, turntables to gramophones.
So take a last lick of your ice cream cone.
And lock up what you still want to own.
But please be kind.
And don't rewind.
All of your pretty, your pretty little rags and bones.
Your pretty little rags and bones
Jump up, jump up, jump up, come on and give it to me
Oh, your pretty little rags and bones
Come on, come on, come on, come on and give it to us"

5:47pm

Seven

My Nana, rip

10:05

I love running my fingers through hair.
Why would I post this?
This is my boyfriend, pre hair-cut.

WC

W: 35
C: 16

Nutopia

2:25pm

"What can I do with my obsession
Sometimes You’re further than the moon

Sometimes You’re closer than my skin

And You surround me like a winter fog

You’ve come and burned me with a kiss

And my heart burns for you

You wrap around me like a winter coat

You come and free me like a bird"

For saliva

"You can speak a foreign language, sometimes,
and it can mean something. You can visit the marker on the grave

where your father wept openly. You can't bring back the dead,

but you can have the words forgive and forget hold hands

as if they meant to spend a lifetime together. And you can be grateful

for makeup, the way it kisses your face, half spice, half amnesia, grateful

for Mozart, his many notes racing one another towards joy, for towels

sucking up the drops on your clean skin, and for deeper thirsts,

for passion fruit, for saliva."
-Barbara Ras

12:47pm

Six

My mom and my brother

12:35pm

"But you can skyrocket away from me,

and never come back if you find another galaxy

far from here with more room to fly.

Just leave me your stardust to remember you by."